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God’s response to my drama

February 23, 2017

Jas,

Live a life of prayer. Yan na muna sa ngayon. Don’t be so busy doing things for me to the point that you have no time left for me. Put me first in everything that you do. From the moment you wake up to the time you sleep. Live a life of prayer, Jas. Pray. Talk to me. And please, listen. Listen to me. Listen to what I’m saying.

Then things will go well with you and you will have great success. Your success will be based on the people who came to know Me through your life. Share My love for everyone. Talk about Me. Tama na siguro muna ang crush talks at nonsense talks. Ako naman ang ibida mo ngayon. Nalimutan mo na ba ang mga ginawa ko para sayo? Wala ka na bang bagong kwento tungkol sa pagmamahal ko sayo? Be observant, Jas. Andito lang ako lagi sa tabi mo.

Lastly, if you want to walk on water
you’ve got to get out of the boat.

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Wag kang makontento sa nakasanayan mo na. Go. Live out My dreams for you. Marami pa kong gustong ipagawa sayo. Hindi ka pa mamamatay. Ang tanong, handa ka na bang sumunod? I’ve been preparing you since Day 1. Alam mo naman kung saan kita tinatawag, tama ba? O hanggang ngayon denial ka pa rin? Don’t worry, Jas, kilala kita. Alam kong sigurista ka, gusto mo malinaw ang lahat. Akong bahala. Ako mismo ang kakausap sayo.

Di na ako magpapaliguy-ligoy pa. Basta, makinig ka lang. Marami akong plano para sayo Jas. Humanda ka na. I love you.

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Sapatos ng panghihinayang HAHAHA

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Hahaha. May nakita akong magandang sapatos sa Ukay. Maganda talaga. Pakiramdam ko para sa akin yun. Sinukat ko, saktong-sakto lang. Inilakad ko, aba pwede! Tama lang yung taas, di nakakatisod, di nakaka-ilang. P300 lang, pero di ko binili. Napaisip kasi ako, baka di ko naman pala kailangan, baka di ko rin magamit, sayang lang.

Pag-uwi naisip ko, dapat yata binili ko. Babalikan ko yun! Pag nandun pa, bibilhin ko na talaga. Kung wala na, hayy, sayang…

Oo, sayang, pero di dapat masaktan kung may iba nang nakabili, kasi kahit sobrang swak sa akin yung sapatos, ako naman kasi yung umayaw.

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Letting go Part 1

Waaaah. Ooooooooh. Does it spark joy?

Okay, let me face the truth. Yes, it indeed sparks joy. I know how excited I am to write a book, to learn a new subject, to plan things out, to work with a highschool classmate. I know. I know it sparks joy. But sadly, I have turned down the opportunity. But why?

I can’t believe I’m feeling this way,
can’t believe I’d admit this to myself.
And honestly, I can’t believe I have let go of the opportunity huhuhu

Lord, I just hope I made the right decision. Help me move on. Amen.

I still want to speak. But I don’t know what to say.
But I want to know why I am feeling this way.
I want to understand what’s happening inside.

Maybe I feel this way because this is my first time to not grab an opportunity.
It feels
so weird.
I am not comfortable with it,
I feel uneasy, unsettled,
coz what I know is that opportunities are meant to be grabbed.
But maybe
some opportunities
are really meant to be ignored.
Maybe. Ooooh. Haha. Hehe.

Siguro nga.

HAHAHA.
So far that’s the most convincing justification I’ve thought of.
YeheyyyyhahahapushtamanaangpanghihinayangmoveonnatayoJashahaha! 🙂

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Grabe, Lord, thank you po. Indeed, thank you for helping me move on. Ilang araw na akong nahihirapan dahil sa panghihinayang. Pero siguro nga, may mga bagay talagang kailangang i-let go. Hindi kailangang i-grab lahat ng opportunity lalo na kung medyo alanganin at mako-compromise ang pagiging tapat at totoo, at posible ring ma-compromise ang mga dapat na priority ko sa ngayon. Tama nga naman. Haaayyyyy. So mukhang kailangan ko na talagang tapusin ang panghihinayang sa librong hindi naisulat, at hintayin ang susunod na pagkakataong makapagsulat. Sana nga may dumating pa. At pagdating nun, sana pwede ko nang sunggaban ang pagkakataon.

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Happy and meaningful 2017

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Things and events that will make my 2017 happy and meaningful 🙂

  1. Closer relationship with God through daily Bible reading and praying, listening to songs, reading books, writing reflections, and sharing God’s word to more people.
  2. More time for family meals, family kwentuhan and bonding ❤
  3. Bok attending church regularly again, hopefully before we celebrate our 25th birthday. 🙂
  4. More organized room (and the whole house), less clutter, more space for breathing.
  5. Soft-launch of our Crismo Dream Library, with books well-sorted and children enjoying reading the books.
  6. Punctual Jassy, never late for work, at church, in meeting friends, etc.
  7. A God-centered 25th birthday celebration, whether thru a concert, exhibit, pakain, or whatever it may be.
  8. Grabbed and maximized opportunities to share God’s word and God’s love in word and in deed, inside the bus, in our neighborhood, at work, at home, with friends, etc. (Hope I could write those stories!)
  9. Jassy filled with joy, strength, wisdom, and courage to share God’s love to the world. 🙂 ❤
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Ginusto ko pero

Ginusto kong gumawa ng kanta
Pero parang sa akin, di yun natural
Ginusto kong tumula
Pero kasi, di ako sa ganun kilala
Ginusto kong sumayaw
Pero di naman yata bagay
Ginusto kita
Pero alam kong di talaga tayo para sa isat-isa
HAHA

Ginusto kong magseryoso
Pero di ko yata kayang hindi tumawa
Ginusto kong magtrabaho
Pero ang lakas kasi ng wi-fi
Ginusto ko naman talagang magsipag
Pero hinihila ako ng kama huhu
Ginusto kong humugot
Pero wala pala akong paghuhugutan
HAHAHA

Ginusto kong paabutin ito sa 100 words
Pero wala na kong mapigang salita
Pero syempre gagawan ko ng paraan HAHAHA

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Love letter na natanggap ko nung Feb

Dear Jas,

I love you. Lagi naman e. Kahit ano pang ginagawa mo, kahit busy ka pa sa ibang bagay o sa ibang tao, love pa rin kita. Hindi magbabago yun.

Oo nga, nakaka-miss din yung intimate Quiet times natin sa bubong o kaya sa court, pero alam mo, Jas, kahit nasaan ka pa, sa kwarto o sa sasakyan, naririnig kita. Wag kang mag-alala. Naririnig kita. Kausapin mo lang ako. Kahit sa isip lang o sa bulong, kahit di ka magsulat, pinapakinggan kita. Pero syempre, mainam na magsulat ka, para meron kang record at reminder na rin ng pag-ibig ko sayo.

Jas, tandaan mo, natutuwa ako pag ako ang inuuna mo imbes na yung cellphone mo. Nakakalungkot pag naisasantabi mo ang panahon mo para sa akin pero kahit na ganun, tandaan mo, sa tuwing babalik ka, handa akong yakapin ka nang mahigpit.

With much love,
God ❤

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Education in Agoo

We are on our way to Baguio and just earlier, I saw a sign that points the way to Agoo. My college field trip in that place suddenly flashed back.

Our trip to Agoo was one of my best field trips because of the inspiration I got from it. I love the place not because of awesome landmarks or whatsoever but because of its number 1 priority, which is education. I really love them for that hehe

The previous and present mayors of the town of Agoo prioritize education. And they really mean it! Aside from the formal public schools, they also provide alternative forms of education. They have established many centers for Alternative Learning System, from playing musical instruments to gardening to making products from recycled materials. Their Maximum Recovery Facility is  well-organized. Their market is clean and has a library! Yes, an airconditioned library with Wi-fi, so children can read while their parents are busy shopping in the market. They also value adult education and so teach lolos and lolas to read. Wow talaga.

The crime rate in Agoo is almost 0%, and I believe it is because the people there are well-educated. They know right from wrong, and know they should do the right thing. They are empowered and so they dream big. If only the whole country would prioritize education too! Instead of killing people, why not educate them? Especially the young people. They should be educated and empowered as early as now.

Oh, dear government officials, ano nga ba ang priority niyo? Can’t you see education is the key? Well, let me clear, education is not only about exams and grades, if that’s what you think. Education is what we can give to the next generation so they can be equipped for life’s greater challenges. Education lets us use what we already know and work on what we need to know more. Education prepares us mentally, physicaly, emotionally, socially, and spiritually. And above all else, education helps us discover the Big Dream that God has for us and the Big Need that we will be catering so we can live a full and meaningful life.

Haha if I will join Miss Universe, this would be my advocacy: Education for all! 🙂 Thanks to Agoo for the inspiration! ❤