Stronger

I was singing “You made me stronger by breaking my heart” when I realized that, Heyyy, I won’t give him the credit for my stronger self now! It is I who did the work of building myself up after losing my self worth because of his confusing and contradicting words and actions. It is I who did whatever project I could think of to express and process my emotions, to be empowered, and to gradually come back to my bestest self! And it is God who sustained me through my episodes and provided me with safe spaces literally and figuratively during my difficult times. It is God who did not give up on me and did not leave me in the mess that I got myself into. It is God who pulled me out of that mess and made me stronger by making my heart whole again.

I told myself I should stop singing that song to my complicated crush who made me question my beauty, intelligence, and personality. He did not make me stronger. He just broke my heart, period. It is unfair for Jassy of 2020 to change the narrative. Well yes, he taught me how to fall in love but not how to let go of a lie. He did not teach me that. I learned it because of what he did. I became stronger when he broke my heart because it made me search my heart for what I value in life and in relationships. I became stronger because I did not let myself be treated like trash anymore. I became stronger because I told my future self that I love her and I would do everything to make her feel loved again and be better after a year. And I did. Thank you Jassy of 2020 for not giving up. Thank you for making Jassy strong enough to live life in the years that followed. And of course, thank you Lord for making all these possible. Thank you for being with me along the way. Yeyy!

Here’s the chorus part of the song with the changed pronouns:

I became stronger when you broke my heart

You ended my life, God made a better one start

I have learned everything from falling in love to letting go of a lie

Coz I became stronger, baby, when you said goodbye 👋

Now that’s closer to the truth and more empowering! 💖