Mama left for Singapore early this morning and she’ll be back on November 8. As usual, we prayed together before she left. Mama was about to start the prayer when Papa said, “Okay, Jas, lead the prayer.”
Oooh, that was something new. Mama seconded that I lead the family in prayer. She told me to pray for her.
Yes, of course, I thought.
Then she said, “Pray also for the patience of all of you here at home.”
And so I prayed. I prayed for Mama’s safety and fulfillment on her travel. Then I prayed for a productive weekend for all of us left at home. I hesitated to pray for more patience, concerned that they might get offended. I wanted to pray for more love at home, but I held back my words. It was kind of awkward to say it aloud. I mean, how would everyone react if they hear the phrase more love at home? (We don’t usually talk about love at home hehe.)
The prayer ended without me saying all that I wanted to lift up to God in prayer. Oh, next prayer time if I’ll be asked to lead again, I hope I could say my prayer without reservations. 🙂
Upon writing this, I realized we should start talking about love little by little so that it won’t keep on being a taboo inside our home. Maybe by saying and hearing the word love more often, we could be able to express our love for each other more naturally. Oh yeah! HAHA
If I will be asked what I truly desire right now, it is quality time with my family. We lack that. We often have no time for each other. I, too, am guilty. Yeah. I just wish we could be together and spend real time with each other, share and listen to each other’s stories, sing songs, dream dreams, exchange smiles and hugs and kisses, dine together, play fun games, and do just anything together. It seems impossible right now but I know this will surely happen in God’s time. Yes, please, Lord Jesus, fill our family with love. Amen.
You have poured out Your love for us when You shed Your blood on the cross 2000 years ago. Thank You for Your love. Now, I pray once again that You may fill us with Your love, Lord. Fill our family with love for each other. Fill our home with love that comes from You. May we all taste and experience the goodness of Your love and grace. May we let each other experience Your love, mercy and grace. May we be a family that seeks You and delights in doing Your will. May we praise and worship and serve You together as a family. This is my heart’s greatest desire now, Lord – that we, Crismo family, would come together to know You more and love and serve You and each other more and more each day. May You grant this desire of my heart, Lord Jesus. Thank You for Your love, for this life, and for our family. I love You, Jesus. Thank You for loving me. Amen.
Paminsan-minsan, nawiwili tayong piliin ang dilim kaysa liwanag. Kasi doon, hindi tayo makikita. Hindi mae-expose ang mga mali nating ginagawa. Walang sisita sa atin. Hanggang sa nasasanay na tayong magtago at mamuhay sa dilim.
Pero hindi yun ang gusto ng Diyos para sa atin. Gusto ng Diyos na magkaroon tayo ng buhay na ganap at kasiya-siya. Gusto Niya tayong mamuhay sa liwanag. Kaya nga Siya pumunta sa mundo para bigyan tayo ng liwanag. Hindi para silawin lang tayo sa ningning Niya. Hindi para konsensyahin lang tayo sa mga mali nating nagawa. Dumating ang Diyos para ialis tayo sa dilim at dalhin tayo sa liwanag. Dahil gusto Niya tayong iligtas sa kasamaan at sa kamatayan. Dumating ang Diyos dahil gusto Niya tayong mapabuti. Gusto Niya tayong mabuhay ng ganap dito sa mundo at mabuhay nang walang hanggan sa langit kapiling Niya. 🙂
Ngayong ang Diyos na mismo ang gumawa ng paraan para mapalapit sa atin, pipiliin pa rin ba natin ang dilim kaysa sa liwanag?
Sana, gaya ni Bartimaeus, gustuhin din nating makakita. 🙂
Okay, then. I will not settle for anything less. Even if I have to wait for decades. Huhu decades? For real? O God, teach me to trust in You completely.