I need rest

I am tired. Physically and emotionally. My body aches, maybe because of my wrong position in bed. I feel sleepy, maybe because of our overnight swimming last Sunday followed by a Monday full of events and stories packed with all the emotions we can feel.

Okay, let me unpack that Monday’s events. My bestfriend and I went to the campus because she is now a dormer, and I am happy for her. Yey! We arranged things in her room and excitedly thought of her coming dorm days. Next, we went to her college and met with a common friend. After our conversations and our hellos and goodbyes, we decided we need to eat. We rode a jeepney to Philcoa, got a little confused with the new route, walked some steps, and finally ate chickenjoy while talking about some hanash in life haha. After feeling a little bit recharged, we visited our highschool Math teacher and talked with her family while waiting for our turn to enter her room. We had a really little time to talk with her, but in my heart, I cherish those few minutes. We prayed for her and for her family before leaving the hospital. We then hurriedly went to a theater to watch Pagsambang Bayan The Musical, felt some terror and got our thoughts evoked by the play. Before going home, we had a light dinner at Chowking with my family and shared some stories and laughter haha. We then tried to sum up our thoughts and emotions for the day during our bus ride on our way home. It was indeed a full day, we agreed. Thank God for the strength we had for that Monday! We went home with our hearts full. โค

And then came the news about my highschool Math teacher. I was already asleep, in fact, I was already dreaming, when my bestfriend called and told me to go online. And so I did.ย  How generous of my teacher’s daughter to share with us her mother’s last moments through a video call. She was asking us to give our last words to our teacher, who was also our coach in the Math contests we competed way back in highschool. I was speechless. The news wasn’t sinking in. My bestfriend was crying. I felt nothing. I don’t know what to feel. I don’t know what to say. I was literally speechless. The video call ended. I managed to compose my words of thanks to my teacher and sent it to her daughter. I was asked to read it to her over the phone. I cried as I did.

My mind was wandering after the phone call. I was not sleepy anymore, and thought of doing some stuff for my work. Next thing I know, it was already Tuesday morning.

Many things have happened and it’s difficult to process them all. I was not that productive today, I spent most of my time sleeping. My sister said I have overslept the whole day. But hey, I slept for many hours today because I need to replace my lack of sleeping hours last Sunday. And so I needed to sleep haha. But maybe she was right. Maybe that’s one of the reason I feel exhausted.ย  Or maybe not. Maybe I just can’t process everything. I need space. To think. To feel. To breathe. Or maybe I just feel pressured because I still have no outputs for my work for two days now. Also, my laundry basket is haunting me, even my bags in my room are bugging me. I feel guilty because I have not been doing anything about my work and my chores this week. Hayyy.

I need rest. Not just some hours of sleep, but real rest.ย  As I typed this entry’s title, Matt 11:28 instantly came to mind. “Come to me all you who are tired and heavy laden, and I will give you rest.” And then the lyrics of a song we sang in our youth choir started to play, “Come unto me, I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, hear me and be blessed. I am meek and lowly, come and trust my might for my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”

O Jesus, I need rest. Restore my strength that I may do all that is required of me, and other things that I want to do for you. Renew my strength that I may live life to the fullest. Dami talagang ganaps, tulungan nyo po akong makabalik on track. Thank you Jesus. Aasahan ko po ang pahinga at panibagong lakas na ibibigay niyo. Amen.


Long time together kasi long time no see

Yeyy, finally, nagkita na tayo! Super busy ng mga nagdaang buwan, sa pag-aaral mo at sa trabaho ko. Buti na lang tapos na ang lahat. Sabay-sabay natapos ang 2017, ang sem mo, at ang project namin. At ang future namin ng crush ko. Charots.

Naalala ko nung nagkita tayo dati, ikaw yung nagtatrabaho tapos ako yung nag-aaral. Pakiramdam ko noon maraming pagkakaiba ang nagtatrabaho sa nag-aaral, pero ngayon naiisip ko, woooh, parang pareho lang naman yata! Haha. Nasasabayan pa rin naman natin ang kwentuhan at experiences ng isat-isa.

Anyways, simula nung nabasa natin yung The Secrets of the Family Tree, dumalas ang usapan natin tungkol sa pamilya, kung paano tayo nakaka-relate sa mga sinabi sa libro, at (ang pinakamahirap) kung ano na ang gagawin natin sa nabasa natin. Buti na lang gets natin ang isat-isa. Yey!

Natutuwa ako sa exchange gifts natin tuwing ganitong season, at sa exchange thoughts natin sa mga ganaps sa paligid natin at sa mga kakilala haha. Hindi talaga tayo mawawalan ng pag-uusapan. Salamats Cha!

Laging refreshing ang oras ko with you. Thank you! Sa susunod, sige, mag-Eco Park naman tayo. Tingin tayo sa clouds. HAHA. God bless sa second sem mo at sa bahay mode ko. ๐Ÿ™‚

PS Na-realize ko ngayon lang, di pala natin masyadong nata-topic ang lovelife mo hehe. Puro kasi ako daldal ng crushlife ko e! Sa susunod na lang. ๐Ÿ™‚

PS ulit Tho nasa Tuesdays with Charrie na category ito, Saturday talaga ito, hindi Tuesday hehe ๐Ÿ˜‰


Tuesdays :)

Maraming Tuesday na ang nakalipas, pero di pa rin ako nagsusulat. Siguro kasi di ko mahanap yung mga salitang gagamitin ko na tutumbas sa saya ng kwentuhan natin. O siguro di ko mahabol yung bilis ng utak ko pag inaalala ko yung mga napag-usapan natin sa loob lang ng ilang oras. 

Ang galing no? Lagi na tayong Tuesday kung magkita. Siguro dati, di yun sadya, hanggang sa ang sarap na lang din sadyain na magkita tayo ng Tuesday. Pakiramdam ko tuloy pwede (o dapat) na akong magsulat ng libro na Tuesdays with Charrie HAHAHA

Alam mo ba, isa talaga sa mga panalangin ko e dumalas ang kwentuhan natin, at sobrang nagpapasalamat ako sa Diyos kasi unti-unti yung natupad. ๐Ÿ™‚ Dami ko kasing gustong ikwento sayo, at gustong-gusto ko ring makarinig ng kwento mo.

Dami na nating napagkwentuhan – pangarap, pag-aaral, trabaho, pamilya, teleserye, at kung ano-ano, na iniisip ko, sana pala nakapagsulat man lang ako ng quotable quote mula sa pag-uusap natin hehe.

O basta, ano man ang ganap natin sa buhay, alam kong magsusuportahan pa rin tayo. So, salamats Cha! ๐Ÿ™‚ Kitakits ulit sa Tuesday, at sana makapagsulat ako kahit konti tungkol dun. ๐Ÿ™‚


Mahaba-habang lakaran

Bihira lang tayo magkita, pero lahat ng pagkikitang yun, laging sulit. Lalo na nitong mga nagdaang araw. Pag nagkita tayo, buong araw tayong magkasama kasi marami tayong linalakad haha
Grabe, dami nating napagkwentuhan, napunan yung mga panahong di tayo nakakapagkita. Mga kwentong pamilya, pag-aaral, kaibigan, libro, kapayapaan sa mundo, trabaho, pananampalataya, pusa, buhok, plano sa buhay, mga kakilala, palabas sa TV, etc, etc. Di tayo nauubusan ng kwento, marami kasi talaga tayong pwedeng pagkwentuhan. ๐Ÿ™‚

Salamat sa mga kwentuhan kasi dun tayo mas nakakapag-isip at yun din ang mas nagpapalalim ng friendship natin, diba? Natutuwa talaga ako sa mga lakad natin, nagmamabagal man na lakad o nagmamadali hihi, mga lakad na akala maikli, napakahaba pala, at mga lakad na akala saglit lang, pero matatagalan pala. HAHA

At kahit halos tapos na ang mga nilakad nating papel, alam kong hindi pa rin tapos ang mga lalakarin natin na magkasama. Nuuks! Go go go Cha! ๐Ÿ™‚ Suportahan kita all the way! ๐Ÿ™‚


To my best friend whom I miss so much

Hi Cha!

I want to mail you a letter but I don’t know what to say. I just want to let you know I miss you and I still care for you and I long to hear your stories and share mine, too. That’s all. Probably, I’ll send it tomorrow. Yeah, hopefully I’d find the words to say hihi.

Oh, what a drama! But I want no more dramas. I miss us being so carefree, talking about things that lighten up our loads and brighten up our faces. HAHA I miss our spontaneous conversations. Let’s chat over a cup of coffee (oh, we don’t drink coffee together, maybe let’s just chat over, ahm, buns filled with condensed milk and cheese? Yeah, I miss that merienda with you.) I miss you. Let’s meet soon. Yeah, soon. As soon as possible. But really, I don’t know what stories I would share. I guess, I just want to be with you, to sit beside you and watch the fountain up and splash and whatever. Yes, I just want to be with you. ๐Ÿ™‚

I hope to see you soon. Take care coz I care. HAHA I love you Cha. โค

With smiles and prayers,

Jas ๐Ÿ™‚


MTAP days

Hi Cha! ๐Ÿ™‚
Ngayon lang ulit, sayang ang mga pinalagpas kong saglit. Anywayssss, MTAP days na! Medyo excited na ko pero hindi pa ako kasing-confident nina T. Josie noon. Sadly, medyo may hesitations pa ko pero hopefully, bukas mas ayos na. ๐Ÿ™‚

Haaaaayyy. Ang weird ng feeling na hmmmm basta alam mo yun, may personal choice ako kung sino sana ang mapili for next round huhubells feeling ko tuloy ang mean ko hmp! Ewan, sana maaalis yung ganitong bias na feelings para maging fair ako bilang titser. Medyo sumusungit din ako, ayoko itong nangyayari. Gusto ko sana, kung gaano tayo kakomportable nung review days natin dati e ganun din maparanas ko sa kanila ngayon.

Sana nga. By God’s grace, haharapin ko sila bukas na mas warm at approachable. Sisikapin kong i-entertain ang questions nila. Mas magiging matiyaga ako. Iiwasan kong kumunot ang noo ko. Pipigilan ko ring magkasalubong ang kilay ko hehehe

Haaay Cha, gusto kong manghingi ng tips sayo kung paano ba magiging mas masaya ang review days namin. Kwentuhan tayo soon. Next week na laban. Pray for us! ๐Ÿ™‚

With smiles and prayers,

PS I miss you na! Hahaha


Update: Pinuntahan ko si Cha sa bahay nila nungย January 11ย at malaking tulong sakin ang kwentuhan naming yun. Thanks, Cha!