Paano malalaman ang best?

God speaks to us in many different ways. 🙂

Malaking bagay ang pakikipag-usap ko sa mga kaibigan ko. I spent six hours talking with my best friend about my career plans – shall I start teaching now or enter the field of book publishing? I have a bachelor’s degree in Elementary Education, with area of concentration in Mathematics, and I studied to learn how to teach.  I enjoy teaching and sharing my God-given knowledge in Math.  I am excited to see students have their “aha!” moments in Math.  But my cooperating teacher offered me a job – to be a Math Editor in a publishing house.  I was thrilled with the idea of being an editor and seeing my name printed in a book. Ooh, also I wanted to know how it is in there.

Hmm.  I applied as a teacher and took an exam in my Alma Mater today.  I went there with my twin brother who applied as a History teacher.  Our demo was scheduled on Friday 10am.  On my way home, my best friend texted me about my plans to work. Ohh, I just wanna cry that moment inside the jeepney; her message was just what I needed.

Congrats sa pagsablay! 🙂 Sana wag mong kalimutan ang mga gusto mong gawin sa buhay at wag ka sana mapagod or tamarin magturo.  Wag isipin na magsisimula ka pa lamang sa tunay na buhay kasi baka ipagpabukas mo ang paghahanap ng opisyal na trabaho – bagkus ay ituring na tinutuloy mo lang ang nakasanayan at minamahal mong gawin.  Wag tumigil sa pagkilos at paggawa dahil sa trabaho makikita ang mga natutunan mo at ang passion mo. 🙂 Kayang-kaya mo yan Jas! God’s grace!

Haay, I dropped by her house right away. It was a blessing talking with her. Haha. After 9 long months, we finally saw each other again! Yey! 😀 I shared her my thoughts, my reasons, my hesitations, my reservations, my excitement, and whatsoever is in my head and heart.

We have decided what I should do.  Go to the publishing house the next day, and then wait for two weeks if they would hire me.

That’s the plan… Until before 5pm, the school where I applied earlier, called. Our demo was moved tomorrow afternoon at 3pm. Aaahh. I didn’t know what to say.  I know I did wrong when I mentioned about my plan to apply to a publishing house huhu. Sorry. I’m really sorry.

My brother and I decided we would push through the demo. So now, here I am, preparing my lesson plan. (Oh, haha, I’m blogging right now, but this is part of my preparation. I need to spend my quiet time.)

Romans 12:2

New International Version (NIV)

Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.

What is the pattern of this world? Selfish. Oooh. That’s the first word I thought of.  Selfish. 😦 If I am to obey what God says in His Word, I shouldn’t be selfish.  Why do I want to teach? Do I really want to be an editor? Why? Why am I still double-minded? James says that,

If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. 6 But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. 7 That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord. 8 Such a person is double-minded and unstable in all they do.

Ehem.  What do I really want to do? Hmm. Change the question.  What does God really want me to do?

Earlier, I talked with a friend thru FB chat.  We have just graduated and so the default topic would be Work.

Friendsana makahanap tayo ng magandang trabaho
Akohaha tama
haay. yung best ang plano ng Diyos para sa atin
madaling sabihin pero may times na ako mismo kinakabahan

 Friend: pano malalaman na yun yung best?
 Ako: yan ang hindi ko masasagot ng direkta hehehe
     paano nga kaya?
Friend: di ko rin alam girl :(((

We were talking about the job opportunities that we have and how we could know which is God’s plan for us, when a Bible verse popped up in my mind. Romans 12:2

(We had a long conversation but I will attach it here later after my demo.)

In all honesty, why do I want to be a Math Editor? Hmm. I can feel I will have higher salary. New experience, new world. Sounds interesting and exciting.

Why do I want to be a teacher? Hmm. So that I could share what I know, I could share God’s love to my students. Oh. This means something.

Her words made me remember what I wanted to do all along. Huhu. I think, uhm. Hmmm. I’m pretty sure I really want to be a teacher this school year. 🙂 Oooh. 🙂

Haha. What a change of mind! Oh, wow! Change of mind. Hmm. Is this really for real?  Does this mean I am now deciding to do my best in applying as a Math teacher? Oh, if this is your plan Lord, so be it. Let Your will be done, God. Hmmm. 🙂

Haha. I didn’t expect this. I think I’m finally deciding to stay. Hmmm.

Lord, I surrender to You my plans. Thank you for speaking to me through many ways. Help me listen to You intently, my Lord and my God.  Be my greatest Teacher. I love you Jesus! 🙂 Thank you Lord. In Jesus’ name, I pray. Amen. 🙂 ❤


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